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[zombmi]

I'm so sick of my own bullshit. I just feel anxious and unwanted and violent all the time. It's like being ten years old again or something.

I don't want to go to this movie tonight, not when I know I'm still carrying a grudge. I don't want to rp, but if I stop I'll feel even more isolated. I kinda just want to disappear and try again.

At least I'm not still seeing two of everything. I guess that'll have to do.